Thursday, October 2, 2014

Blooming Orchid

That orchid in my kitchen window finally bloomed again after a year of nothing.  It bloomed right on my anniversary. 

The Warrior Daddy smiled.  He didn't utter a word.  I understood his smile. 

Some things are so worth waiting for. 

Some things I wait for, with lingering, spread-thin hope. 

That orchid is a chore. 

That orchid is temperamental. 

That orchid is hard for me to love at times.

So many moments over the past year I've wanted to give up.  A person can handle small seasons with no flowers, but long seasons make this girl start to lose hope, setting my mind into endless query.

That orchid bloomed a second gift right on Hope's birthday.  It shared it's fifth on my Joy's gotcha day.  I lost count when a bloom blossomed right on my birthday.

Sisters, God is that good! 

His endless gifts are so personal, and full of His tender love. 

That orchid is a gift to this very tired girl, blessed with another very sick child.  And I know it is a grand gesture of His love and direction for my mind and heart.


What if I dared to love with endless devotion, believing with my whole heart that the manipulation, lies, steals, cheats will someday stop?

What if I dared to surrender my whole heart to my precious ones, believing someday they will truly wrap their little arms around it and stop the piercing?

What if I dared to truly reach out and love a birthmom whose choices have damaged my beloved children and changed our reality forever?

What if I give my heart away to a little needy soul who may or may not get to stay forever?

What if I truly trusted in His story, stopped blaming the issues, laid aside my own expectations, and jumped right into the worship of serving these precious ones?

God is bringing me to a crisis of belief, and He is changing this girl forever.

"Then the King will say to those on his right,
'Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world.  For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me.
I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.'  Then the righteous will answer him, saying,
'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink?  And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you?  And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?'  And the King will answer them, 'Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me.'"
Matthew 25:34-40

He promises the flowers will bloom.